Usually a news-junkie, on this anniversary of 9/11, is it disrespectful to want to stay away from news?
Having forgotten to go to jury duty that life changing day, instead of being downtown, I watched on TV instead- safe in my midtown apartment. Added to the horror was guilty anguish, wondering if I was supposed to be there that day, if I could have helped someone- saved someone. Illogical and useless thoughts, yet they haunted me for years until I learned to forgive myself for something I can't understand anyway.
For the next year, the first time after, anytime New Yorkers ran into each other we cried before we spoke, knowing the topic would be friends who died in the tower.
Nope-no news for me today. Friends only. I am heading out to 47th St- to make something beautiful, and bring some work to other NY'ers. Tiny steps forward, and I am wishing Peace of Heart to all.